Dear Bub Kristina,

I got this idea from a couple of blog's that have written letter's back to themselves when they were kids or teenagers. I thought this would be something really cool to do. So here it goes.

Dear Kristina, 

When you are 5 years old your mom is thinking of moving on and leaving your dad. She will pack up one morning and be gone. You will know this because your dad is laying in your bed crying saying mom isn't coming back. You will be sad but won't really understand what is going on. Don't worry your dad meets your stepmom Tina and she will love and take care of you like any mom would. She will teach you things like wearing pink lip stick and learning how to shift a manual. When you are 8 years old your mom will be moving back to New Zealand, this isn't because she doesn't love you, but drugs and alcohol will consume her life and she is doing it to get better and provide a better life for your brother. You are entering the 6th grade and your step mom Tina is moving on as well and moving out. She will have her own place that you can still go and visit and were told that she will always be part of your life. You will start junior high and get involved with new friends, but don't forget your old ones. Everyone is starting to date and have boyfriends and girlfriends, but that doesn't mean that you have to as well to be considered cool. Don't bug your dad about the latest new things, clothes. You don't need them. Even if people think you are uncool because of the clothes brands you wear it doesn't matter. Your mom comes back, do don't worry. She has returned and now she is part of your life again and brother. You will get really involved with soccer and love it. You owe your dad many thanks for paying for everything for you to enjoy the sport. When you start high school you will have all kinds of new temptations. Drinking, staying out late, and getting into trouble. Don't lie to your parents about where you are because you will get caught and they will find out. You get your license at 16 and you will even more tempted to get in trouble and lie. I wouldn't do it if you want to have your license taken away. Enjoy your new found freedom. Also, thank your dad for paying for your gas, sports, school, clothes, because without him you wouldn't have a car to drive freely in. You will experience your first love in high school and heart break. Don't waste your time with boys. You will have plenty of time. Even though you think you are cool and older, don't forget to spend time with family and tell your parents you love them and thank them for everything they have given you. You will experience hurt and sadness when you are told that your mom has brain cancer. But, please don't worry, 8 years later she will be just fine. You will graduate high school and move to another state. It will be tough and hard, but you can do it. You will make friends, find a good job and love. Don't forget to thank your aunt and uncle that put up with your ass. You will find love and dive right in. You will move in together, it will be scary and fun at the same time. You will have your ups and downs but overall he loves you and will take care of you. Right before your 21st birthday you will find out you are pregnant. Yes, you will have to call your family. You will call your mom first and rack up $20 bucks on your cell phone to call internationally.  You call your grandma since you will have the practice out before calling your dad. You will cry on the phone with your dad, but he will tell you that everything will be alright. The one thing that you won't know is that child will be joy and happiness to your life. Ian will be a good dad and you will be a good mother. Mackenna will be born and Ian will be laid not much later from work. Don't worry or stress he will find a job after a couple of weeks. He will find the best job and like it.  Your mom will surprise you and come all the way from New Zealand to meet Mackenna. It will be sad when she leaves but don't worry she will be back no more than a month later for good. Your mom will move to L.A. but that's ok, you and Mackenna will visit often. You will experience pain, hurt and sadness once again, when you learn your mom has cancer for the second time. Work will let you go down to L.A. and work remotely  so you can be with your mom. It's sad to leave to go home, but your mom will be back in a few months. You will be close again with your mom and brother. They will be part of your daily life and Mackenna's. Your future is up to you. Make wise choices and stick by your choices. You are what you make of your life, it's in your control. Enjoy it. 

I think we all wish we could have had a letter from the future to tell us what to expect, what not to do, etc.. but, that's just not life. We all have to experience and make decisions and wrong ones to learn and grow as individuals. 

Isagenix Day #3

Shakes are scrumptiously delish. I jazzed mine up a little this morning by adding a little banana and a dash of blue berries.

Weigh in at 3 days: 2.5 lbs 

I'm craving water as we speak. Giving up coffee is ok, since the first thing when I wake up I want to chugg water. 

Isagenix Schedule

6:00am: Glass of water

6:45am - Make shake. You can use a blender ball cup or a blender. In the morning I use the blender and add banana or peanut butter. 

8:00am: glass of water

8:30am: Take natural accelerator pill

9:00: Ionix supreme (1 scoop added to water, part of the cleanse program) It's yummy to me and tastes like fruit juice.

9:30: Snack - 6 raw almonds, apple, berries, Slim cake (from Isagenix), 2 isagenix snacks (chocolate waffers)

Lunch 1:00: Shake or I trade and have my 400 calorie lean meal at this time and shake for dinner.

1 glass of water

2:00 Glass of water

3:00: Snack - Snack - 6 raw almonds, apple, berries, Slim cake (from Isagenix), 2 isagenix snacks (chocolate waffers) Glass of water

4:00 Glass of water

5:00 - Head home. Chugg rest of water, or have a lil snack in the car

6:00 -7:00ish Dinner - 400 calorie lean meal veggies and protein or shake

9:00pm: 2 isa flush pills and more water bed!

Not much to it. No thinking involved. The most I need to think about is my 2 snacks and if I'm having lunch or dinner or shakes. 

Wordless Wednesday - Photo's from Washington trip

Isagenix Day #2

"Without inspiration the best powers of the mind remain dormant. There is a fuel in us which needs to be ignited with sparks."

Johann Gottfried Von Herder

Today is day #2 of the cleanse. Something about this time is so different. I'm more motivated then ever. I'm going to start posting photos of me before Mack around the entire house, so I'm reminded of my sweet sexy self everyday. ha. maybe.

Challenges: no coffee, soda... just water. 

If you are interested in Isagenix go to Isagenix.com and check it out. Also, if you have any questions feel free to ask me. : )

What I love the most about this product is it is all natural and the best ingredients are used to live a healthy lifestyle. 

What happened to my 9 hour baby?

I had the best baby ever. Mack was such a good sleeper from the moment we brought her home. She loved to eat and sleep and so did mommy and daddy. It took a week or so to adjust to her sleeping patterns. She eventually was in her crib by the first week. I'm so glad I didn't do co-sleeping. She has slept by herself in her crib since she was 1 week old. However, her crib was in our room for the first 2 months. 

When she was 3 months the crib was moved to her own room. She got great sleep and so did we. Although she did wake once a night till 7 months for a feeding. Which I didn't mind. I had a video monitor and I was able to see her the entire time. Which was awesome. 

Anyway, here we are 2 1/2 years old. Every night before bed we read to her. After reading 4 books or so we say its time for sleeping. She gets all cozy in her toddler bed and rolls over like she is going to go to bed. We close the door. I walk by her room after 5 minutes or so and the light is on in her room. I open the door and she looks at me innocently. "Books mommy books!" I tell her that I will read one more book and then it's bedtime. Sometimes the second time she is off to sleep and other nights this could be 3 or 4 more times before she finally steps down and goes to bed. 

I don't mind her doing this in the slightness. However, recently she has been getting up at 3, 4 and 5 am. Depends on the night. She opens her door and comes in our room. She get's lifted into bed and then she proceeds to talk to us and kick us in bed to wake us up. We go lay her back down after a little while, but she gets right back up. So, this morning at 3:30am I finally get her out of bed and put in a movie for her in her room. She watched the whole thing happily. 

I finally get out of bed and get ready for the day and we head off to school and work. So, now that missy has been getting up so early, she has been passing out in the car on the way to school.

What the Heck? Since when?

My kid as always been the perfect 8-9 hour sleeper? Is this just a phase? 

Sound familiar to any of you mom's with toddler's?

The McFatty Journey

I was really hesitate on posting this post with you all. First of all, if you haven't noticed I post a lot of photos of Mack and Ian. Where o Where did the woman/mommy that writes these blog posts ever going to show up? The fact of the matter is I don't like myself. Especially in photos.... I mean I swear the demon electronic device with a flash, called a camera, alters you to make you look horrible. I swear it.

It's time for change. I recently watched a movie Eat.Pray.Love. Call me corny, sappy, or whatever word is coming to your minds. 

Side note: I know there is one word you are all thinking of. If you are brave enough you can share the word you are thinking of below in the comments.

I'm not looking for love, got that taken care of and the stretch marks to prove it. I'm looking for a change in my life and a new balance for me. In the movie she eats and eats and basically doesn't care and wants to live. Well, i'm not saying I'm packing up and leaving tomorrow for Rome, India, and Bali. 

p.s The hubs wouldn't be too happy if I left and walked out because then who is going to help pay for the snowmobile. 

What I got out of that movie, reading in between the lines for once, is that it gave me some motivation to make a change in my life no matter what it is. Whether it is to pack up and leave for some.... mine is to get to the old healthy me. I want to be back at my pre-pregnancy weight.

I'm starting to do another cleanse. It's called Isagenix. You can check it out at Isagenix.com 

It's a cleansing system using all natural products to cleanse your body and loose weight at the same time. Genius. I've done it before and I did it for 30 days and lost 15 or 16 lbs. After 30 days I was like heck let's party and let's just say 6 months later I'm looking back at the 15-16 lbs under my clothes again. What the eff! 

I'm rambling... here is too the point! 

How many of you heard cleanse and think you will shit your pants? Thanks for be brave person that is nodding their head. This isn't a colon cleanse. This is a whole body cleanse. 

Shake Days: 6 days of the week - 2 shakes replace two meals and one lean and green meal of 400-600 calories. 

Cleanse Days: Water, Cleansing powder to your water. If you are dying non-salted almonds, apple, carrots or celery to help you get through the day. The first cleanse day is rough. I mean rough, but they get easier.

Here it is my before picture... I was only brave enough because Tiffany from Mom-Nom.com did it and well if she can post a photo I can too. 

Sorry. It's a bad one. I attempted to take it myself. haha

Proposed Weight loss: 60lbs

1st goal: January 30th - 10lbs

2nd goal February 15th - 15lbs

3rd goal February 28th - 20lbs

4th goal March 15th - 30lbs

Daily Goals:

Gym - once a day 45 minutes minimum

Water - 8-9 glasses a day. Even if I have to force it. 

No to: Coffee, soda (includes diet coke), juice. Just water for a week. Phew. I need a miracle.

I know there are a few of my readers and some people at Mom-Nom.com that are following along and motivating each other to become healthier mom's and women. If you have any suggestions that has worked for... please, please tell me! 

I'm opening this up to anyone that wants to join me in McFatty Monday... Credit to Heir to Blair for starting McFatty Monday's. Bless her. She has the cutest tot and family. Are you in? We can do this. I want to create a little network on MountainMum.com of people that want to get healthy. There will be no negative remarks just pure encouragement as we mama's put the doughnut down and get our life back. Plus, who wants to look hot this summer? We have time! 

I'm going to need the encouragement of all of you and positive thoughts. We can do this and together. Who is with me?

Wordless cont. sick girly

I don't feel well mommy!

Mack, " watching how to train your dragon with mommy. My mom is the coolest for getting me popcicles and 7up. I have the best mom ever."

This is what she is thinking and wishes she could tell me.

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